Nothing is good enough...

Why is it that we always feel like what we are doing is not good enough?  In my case no matter how hard I hustle and go places, take meetings, network, meet new and old friends, take classes, audition and talk to my agent, manager, and any other person in the world about my work....it always comes down to it not being enough! Is it that we feel we are not good enough where we are or simply we don't recognize what we have?  I'm testing this theory as I truly find myself behind tasks and all over the place.  Yesterday I ran into the nicest lady who reads future for the living and the first words out of her mouth was...you have too many things going on!!!! I had to stop and think is it that even though a total stranger is telling me to slow down and I think she maybe right but I still feel behind and the need to go faster...why is it that nothing is ever good enough?????

UP AND DOWN...

It's all about how you feel in this industry.  I felt sad for days and kept blaming myself for not booking this or that role. The truth is when you are lucky enough to get an audition and you perform your best and by that I mean give it your all and walk away or tape away...you are now done!!!!! You no longer have control of why you didn't book the part as there are soooooooo many things happening behind the scene that you don't have any control over. Feeling up and full of positive energy can help you get far in showbiz and the opposite is when you feel down,  you are pushing away all the good that is waiting for you.  It's all about doing and doing and doing some more and eventually something's gotta give...the universe will respond to all your doing...it may not be this project but maybe,  just maybe the next one!!! 

Break Time

Ok so...there is such a thing as doing too much...Last week I had an amazing audition for a great TV show and when I showed up...the wonderful Casting Director thought I looked too young for the role in mind so she asked me to go back for a different role and a different language...so worked on it and got my wonderful friend ISI's help and was ready to kill it...I went in all confident and ready and did the performance and as I left trying to get myself in order as I always leave parts of me behind at the C/D's office...I realized I couldn't wait to find out if I got the part...and I knew in my heart that it was mine and I was smiling.  Days passed and I didn't hear anything and I begged my agent to find out what was going on and finally I was told that they went with someone older...so you see, it's never up to us...what is up to you is...DO your best and let it go... take a break, vacation, little holidays here and there so you don't over think, over analyze and drive yourself NUTS about everything...or you will get burned out and believe me that's the last thing you want.  

What a Girl Needs....

Frustrated as I still have no hot shower and that maybe the main reason that I'm not in the most exciting mood when...my good friend and very new friend G, calls me up on the phone and she sounds all happy and excited...she has many things to worry about but some how she's super happy and positive.   As I start going down on my how to sabotage my life... she STOPS me and says MAGGIE no no no...I can't let you do that.  You have to be positive and on top of it. If you are in this stay and make it work.  I tell you it was as though she opened some new door in me that I hadn't known about and let the light in.  So, no matter what or how crazy of a dream you have...DO NOT GIVE UP...you were meant to do this...so what are you waiting for...No Fear is needed on this amazing journey only Happy thoughts and positive friends.  All you need is G.  

Sleepless in Cali

Too much going on…it’s 3am and I can not sleep…As the Pilot Season is hot and heavy right now…well it hasn’t been super hot for Ce Moa.. the only thing hot in the last few days has been the hot heat outside…My head is full of thoughts, ideas, projects… at 3am sleep is necessary to make all of them come true so I’m going to try to catch some zzzz’z.  Night night…

Day 1 here we go....

Happy Friday...sun is shining in Southern Cali and while my family is freezing their asses off in Chi town I'm sitting here in my bra and pj bottoms...starting my very own BLOG!!! That's right bitches...this is going to be the raw and the real no bullshit all that there is about life, acting and advice on anything and everything...here we go!!!